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A death in the family takes Jim Cleary from Boston to Appalachia. There amid the grey and green Kentucky hills sits the Cottage his great-grandfather built. The rustic calm gives little hint of what lies beneath the stars that hang so silent, cold, and bright.

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Alex Weir – January 2023

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The Cottage – 2019 – Story Excerpt

Appalachia spreads itself in grey and green a few hundred miles inland of the Atlantic. Its mountains, caves, lakes, and fields are a delight. It is a garden. It is a temple.

It is where Jim found himself that summer.

His uncle, who went by the name of Hant had got a blood clot in the lung. His modest dwelling the opposite side of a miniscule Kentucky township was always immaculate. And it was in his untrained hand that Jim had received the instruction to keep it that way.

Jim Cleary was a bit of a lay about. Not even committed enough to be a drunk. And though he knew next to nothing about country living the small stipend and the opportunity to daydream made him keen on fulfilling his relatives’ desire.

If this wasn’t enough to seal his fate. Then the nagging of his equally indigent roommates certainly drove the last nail into the coffin of his urban malaise.

“Where da hell ya goin again Jim?” Tony inquired in his brusque Boston brogue.

“Kentucky.”

“And what the hell for?”

“Family shit…changea pace…ya dig?”

“Hell, no I don’t dig. How’s me ‘n Harry gonna keep up with the rent?”

“I already told ya I’d be sending my share.”

“I dunno Jim you’re always late with that shit.”

“Yea…cause that rat fuck boss o mine thinks it’s cute to take my tips….cause of a coupla late deliveries.

“That old song ain’t gonna help here…So lateness is a habit? How the hell am I supposed to trust ya? We still have four months till the lease is up.”

“Cause, my uncle squirreled away a fortune getting black lung and sellin’ Ginseng. And he’s share so long as I keep the house Gramps built in the woods…from becoming the woods.”

“Hmm…I don’ know man…”

“You’re just gonna have to deal cause there’s no way ya can keep me here.”

“Whatever man. Do what you want. But if we don’t get that rent. I’m tellin’ old Barragan ya bailed. His crazy IRA ass will find you in whatever Deliverance style backwater ya choose to go a hidin. Ya dig?”

“Yea, man what the fuck ever.” Cleary said exiting the door.

“Fuck you, Jim.” Tony said grinning.

“Fuck you too, Tony.

 And with a double bird salute Jim Cleary set off for Logan International.

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Jim was unaccustomed to the luxury of flight. He distrusted the cleanliness of first class. Nor did he like the look of the silent burly tour guide that his uncle had sent along.

The guy had a beard that would make Euripides jealous. Went by the name of Dutch and had a pensive air like a wild dog that had found its way into the city.

Made it damned hard to flirt with the stewardess.

After a half hour Jim gave up on making small talk. A guy that talked less than Hant was a lost cause. He didn’t know why he’d even bothered.

It wasn’t gonna be too long of a flight, so Jim just sank into the mind-numbing arms of an inflight movie.

It wasn’t long before Rob Schneider forced his brain to shut down.

It was switched back on by the deep thundering simplicity of. “Wehere, let’s go.”

And indeed, everybody was busily extracting luggage and making their exit in that leisurely, orderly, upper middle-class way.

‘Yuppie schmucks.’ Jim couldn’t help but chuckle at the collection of khakis and polos mixing with folk who should also be wearing khakis and polos but were trying their hardest to appear like a Bluegrass revival.

A battered pickup pulled up to them outside the parking lot. It was driven by a spry old bat with icy blue eyes that went by the name of Lizzy Jennings. Said she was a Viking and that Jim had better watch his manners.

“Don’t got any.”

“Well learn ya sum. Hant told me ya were a thick one.”

Jim ignored the insult and wen to light a cigarette. Only to have it smacked out of his hand.

“Don’t ya bring dat filth in my car.”

“Jesus Christ! I just got off the flight lady…”

The steely angular framed gaze never changed as a wiry freckled arm shot forward and twisted his ear hard.

“Don’t ya be blaspheming in here neither!”

“Ahh…god damn you old bitch…”

This only made her tug harder.

She stopped just shy of tearing his ear off.

“Fuck I shoulda stayed in Boston.” He muttered under his breath.

The drive from Louisville to Reed was five long hours.

Five long hours with two rustic sentinels whose eerie silence was only matched by the eerier economy of motion in their smooth efficient movements.

‘At least it’s pretty.’ Jim mused as he gazed down into the sleepy verdant valleys that flitted beneath the fluctuating elevation.

It was dusk by the time they arrived at the half dozen or so buildings that comprised the township of Reed, Kentucky. He guessed the thing with the spire was a church, the square thing was a post office, the colonial thing was the town hall, and everything else was shops.

‘Where the hell are the houses?’ He mused.

“Ya ever been on a horse ‘fore?” Asked the sun-dried Valkyrie.

‘O fuck…’

The old bat laughed in an innocent girlish sort of way that threw Jim off even more than the prospect of riding a horse.

What was even more disturbing was the perfect, gleaming white, set of teeth that laugh revealed.

‘This crazy crone has better choppers than me…’

“I’m pullin’ at yer leg. I know a fool like you ain’t got no useful habits. You gonna wish you had a horse though. Cause that four-wheeler is a sight more likely to flip than my Sadie.”

Cleary heard a roar from the building that Dutch had disappeared to.

“Don’ be lookin so down. It’s only fifteen miles afore a warm bed and some whiskey.”

“FIFTEEN!”

She laughed that weird coquettish laugh again that was so at odds with her appearance and behavior.

He didn’t have too much time to puzzle over it though cause his carriage was already by his side.

Jim reluctantly took a seat behind Dutch and wrapped his fingers tight round the luggage mount.

He was surprised by the rough feel of an old rope round his neck.

He looked down to see a sack swinging down to his solar plexus.

“Now lemme tell ye bout Thursdays.” Lizzy Jennings said.

“Aha…”

“That’s ginseng in that pouch there.”

“Ok…”

“Today is Thursday and I put some out on the stump. Dutch will show you the stump. Startin next Thursday you’re gonna have to put some Seng down afore dusk.”

“Umm…ok.”

“I suggest ya follow what I tell ye. Cause ye don’ wanna learn it from another.”

“What…?”

“Just put the root down on the stump. Or else there’s gonna be trouble. ALRIGHT BOY?” She stated with vehemence.

“Put the ginseng on the stump…on Thursday…before dusk…I get it.”

She smiled oddly and whistled.

Jim barely had time to get a fresh hold on the luggage rack before he and the giant roared into the inky mountain.


Jim had never seen stars that bright before. In a sky as clean and clear as the angles of his uncle’s cabin. They hung silent. They hung cold.

“It’s chilly up here.” He remarked.

“That’s the damp settin in.”

“Well then I’d best be settin in. I see a chimney. And…” Jim said extracting the Maglite he’d lifted off a distracted cop.

“Hey.” Dutch said with such resonance that he didn’t have to shout. “…Don’t be shinin that at the trees.”

“Uh…. what the fuck Dutch?”

Dutch showed the first sign of discomfort that Jim had thus far witnessed. The aftereffects of the ATV headlights revealed a rolling of the eyes up and to the left. The giant seemed to be considering something.

“I hunt round these parts. In fact, I got a bow on me right now. I don’t want ye to scare off my game.”

“Is it hunting season?”

“It’s always huntin’ season round Reed.”

“…well alrighty then…” Jim said. “Can I at least finally have a fucking smoke?”

“Don’t ‘fend me none.”

“Any reason that we were in such a rush? Couldn’t we have stayed at a hotel so that my Southie ass didn’t have to immediately get Lyme disease pokin round the dark?”

“Well, ye might think it silly but round here we have certain beliefs.”

“Ya don’t say…” Jim sneered recalling the ginseng.

“Hant’s house cannot stand without Hant’s blood.”

Jim took a step back.

“I ain’t into that bloodletting wicca shit. Had this one girlfriend…”

“T’ain’t what I meant.”

“Good.” Jim said allowing the hammer of his .38 to come to rest more audibly than it had been cocked.

“I ain’t afeard of yer pea shooter. Nor should ye be afeard of me.”

“I’m a city boy. I ain’t afeard of anything cause I’m afeard of everything. People are more dangerous than bears.”

“Well, then maybe you’ll last longer than I thought ye would.”

“Last…?”

“Don’t ye mind that. I didn’t mean to insult ya. It’s just that most folk. Even country folk…they can’t dwell here too long. There’s not enough of the wild in these people. And so, the wild here overwhelms them.”

“Ain’t nothin wilder than a Cleary.”

Dutch started. “That’s not Hant’s surname….” He looked really worked up.

“Well, yeah. He’s from my mom’s side. Cronin.”

Dutch seemed relieved. “As long as ya got the blood.”

“Um…look…could you really need to work on your bedside manner.”

“Huh?”

“Could ya please fukin stop sayin blood.”

“What’s wrong with blood. You got blood I got blood everything’s got blood.”

“I’m just worried that with all this blood talk there might be some things that won’t have no more by the end of the night.”

“Are ya yellow?”

“No, just street-smart.”

“Well, there ain’t no streets round here. And I need to be goin. I’ll help ya carry in your belongings’ then I gotta go.”

“Fine by me.” Jim said hoping that the blood obsessed rustic got goin’ for good.

Jim was a light traveler. A case of whiskey, a hamper of clothes, a toothbrush, Hustler, and a carton of smokes were the sum of his belongings. So, it wasn’t long before they’d stowed those belongings in the compulsively neat cabin.

Something didn’t feel right about the precision of the furniture. The way it was spaced. It didn’t seem to be done for entirely utilitarian reasons.

“This is some crazy Feng Shui shit right here…” Jim said trying to move a sharply cornered diamond shaped table away from the wall.

“Don’t do that.”

“Is that your favorite sayin?”

“I mean…ye can try. To do it…but it ain’t gonna do.”

He was right.

The table was affixed to the floor.

“O, what in the fuck…!” Jim exclaimed. “I need a god damned drink.”

Dutch chuckled. “Plenty o that here. Ye probably won’t even get to the stuff ya brought.” He said pointing to the large amply stocked mantelpiece.

“Well…I knew old Hant was a drunk.” Jim said wryly. “But I didn’t know he was gay.”

“He ain’t.”

“Then why is every lamp a god damned Tiffany?”

“Beliefs.”

“Uh huh.”

“Look boy. There’s ways round here. And ye had best learn them. If not out of respect, then so as to get your pay.”

“Now you’re speaking a language I can understand.”

“Gud.” Said the giant as he turned to leave. “I was told that ye can read. Yer uncle had Doc type up the caring of this place. So, make sure that ye do.” He opened the door.

“O…and boy…you will hear things. It’s best to not let them bother you. And they won’t bother you. So long as ye follow the rules. Best take heed o old Lizzy. Do not forget to leave the root. On the stump. Towards the side that grows the moss. Ye do not want it to be missed.”

And with that the cabin resounded with a slammed door.

“What in the actual fuck…” Jim said as he listened to the disappearing roar of the ATV.


Alex Weir – Circa 2019

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How The Scythe Sings – Poem

Regard the way
Solemn as the drifting snow
Where the weary lay
They dainty grow


On cold stone
Drops solid white and crisp
Have angels flown
Or merely petals
Divine wind
Or law how Newton settles


Regard the way
Faint suggestion
Where the weary lay
Promise pulls
In all direction
Whimsy’s fools

Or transcendental might
Testament
Or will of wisp to tantalize the sight

Lament
Or dance a jig


Regard the way
That mourners dig
Where they the weary lay
Regard


Regard
But no too long
For whether phantom
Or celestial gong


Return solemn like drifting snow
Will find the boldest kings
Lain low
(This is)
How the scythe sings

Alex Weir – January 2023

Perfectress

These notes

Are decaying blossoms

Dancing briefly on an afternoon

Against the gloom

What the backdrop brings

How the crescent

Ringing round

So concurescent

In tides

In pools

In Boolean jewels

A billion ones

A billion nones

Stars

What the backdrop brings

Crow

And crouching

Confluescent

Direct flight

But such a crescent

Foaming

Rolling

Roiling

Crest

Tide

Time

Tether

Reach

Racing past a distant peach

Orb a glow

Like basalt beach

Backdrop

Notes

And

I

Backdrop

Notes

And

Diye

Just A Ramble

There’s a lot of foolishness afoot. As has always been. Thought it seems perhaps these days that there is more.

Everybody is simultaneously telling you to hustle and to know your place.

They’re telling you to be carefree and sexy but also traditional.

We must fight for what’s right but also be a peacenik.

We live in a deeply schizophrenic society.

And they wonder why mental illness is on the rise.

They implicate social media.

But have just barely figured out an operational definition of mental illness.

Think about the abstraction of a mental illness.

How is it distinct from the physiological?

These are fundamental questions barely answered by our most stellar thinkers.

And yet we’re implicating social media in the diagnosis?

Towards such a point that we ban Tik Tok?

What if it’s actually more of a litmus test?

Simply something that reveals a much deeper problem.

There’s always been a lot of genuflecting before the ‘greatest generation.’

Boy howdy they sure had moxy!

Yeah…and two back to back world wars as well as the birth of Communism, Fascism, and Nazism.

Then there was Vietnam.

Then there was Charlie Rose with McNamara saying the domino theory of war of American Weltenschaunskreig doesn’t work.

Then there was Iraq. Twice.

We were in Afghanistan for twenty years.

All of this and the alienation it fosters was well before the ascendency of Facebook circa 2006.

So the rise of mental illness may not be a rise at all.

It might just be something that’s been glaringly apparent since the dawn of time.

It just took some silly dances and whacky identity politics to unearth.

Thanks to social media.

A reflection of society.


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Driftwood

The shine kissed the hills.

Warm grasses swayed beneath the pulling of the wind.

Cross legged and decidedly unclenched….uncloistered….

 I gazed at gulls in their fleeting circles….

Should I tread down, once more, to the shoreline?

Should I kick the salty texture of the sea?

Which odd assortment of neural fire must I stoke?

Locomotion was such a drag.

A ritual for sluggards.

So, I sat, like the coastal grasses, heeding only the wind.

Would I become like the bleached driftwood?

Light but substantive…. yielding but substantial….

Was it even a worthy goal?

What is ‘worth’ anyway?

Besides a synapse thwarted…

The remaining sunlight had many hours.

I would keep them.

Stillness, what a joke…

Everything rebels against that clown.

To sit…eschewing motion…

The heart itself knows there is no escape…

And so it moves…so it rhymes…

So it keeps the tension.

So it produces time.

My lips want beer.

My skin wants touch…

Corpus cannot drift cannot wooden be…

Just effulgent suds…

Ethereal…

Uncatchable…

Without a bottle…

Glistening polychromatic in the shine

Kissing the hills

Swaying the grasses

Warmth

Legs grip to behold guls circumscribing

Exulting in direction

Choosing none


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Weigthless

The world was a brilliant green. Although there wasn’t much to it. When the waves were calm it didn’t look too different from a field. An endless field in every direction only broken by the distant hulking target.

For the uninitiated it would be unnerving.

Aden checked the rebreather one final time and broke the surface with nary a splash. Not that it mattered at this distance. The environs were as limitless as before. Though now without the stars the world had grown more alien than an interstellar cruise.

Unhooking the scooter from the rubber hull and pointing northwest he engaged a trio of silent jets. This was his favorite part. Plunging toward insertion with all the sonic fanfare of a minnow, he reveled in the weightless flight.

Three and half miles and some adjustments later he was within range. He left the scooter letting it hover. After assuring the thing was synched with his watch he swam the remaining mile and half to the colossal hull of the Mortimer.

Elder

I was on the shore.

The pier was a few miles distant.

I exited the hatchback.

My wingtips scraping up wet sand and sullying my slacks.

It was empty.

Not a soul in sight.

An occasional seagull or distant pelican were my only companions.

The grey cloud littered sky threatened neither rain nor shine in its resigned indifference.

I was not indifferent.

I had to know.

The old man lived on an island just a half mile from the coast.

The pier was ancient. Whatever lumber or process had been used was definitely excellent. The antique bolts and joists spoke of a long forgotten century.

The dinghy was moored to a post.

I should have dressed more appropriately.

But I also should have been warned of a swim.

That was all irrelevant.

I waded almost to my waist and awkwardly hauled myself into the boat.

Motor traffic was strictly prohibited in the cove.

I began to row.

Harmony Speaks

It’s so calm in the mountains.

The rain hitting the tin roof.

It’s absolute bliss.

I could lay forever in this cot.

It’s so rare to achieve perfect stillness.

I’ve achieved it.

For now.

I’ll only lay here for the duration of the rain.

Stillness in respite.

That sort of thing is fine.

An even finer thing is motion.

Or the smoothing of mental turbulence through footfalls.

Footfalls as regular as drops of rain.

I’d soon fall into rhythm.

There were just a few things to secure in the ruck.

Just a few more indeterminate eternities to cascade onto tin.

Just a few more to bathe my soul.

The smell of damp earth, dead leaves, and pine drifted in among the timber aroma of the cabin.

A perfect touch of cool refreshing air through a slightly cracked window.

An invitation beckoning my strides.

Yet the rain, so right, so rhythmic kept them resting till the appointed stave.

Unbidden through the stillness harmony speaks.