The Harried Deadly Calm

 

 

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The smell of cheap tobacco had become my home. The cigarette dropped listlessly into the green glass ashtray. Uncanny how that thin finger could imbue dead leaves with such ennui.

Thunder erupted from beyond the kitchen door. Outside a large window, the swaying of limbs in summer air was barely perceptible as silhouette. Their shrouded prophecy of rain a stark contrast to the electric yellow of our lamp.

Thumbing the side of a ginny tumbler I thought of shutting the door. The pitter of drops had made a timpani of the glass. Yet there was something so refreshing about the damp expectation of storm that had sauntered through the darkened doorframe.

That and the black long haired cat that had made a bed of my wingtips kept me at my post. I pulled another Pall Mall from it’s green and white casket. Having lit it… I looked at her.

Her eyes rose from the sketchpad to meet mine. We were wordless.

Lightning struck, allowing me a glimpse of the yard beyond the door, and a brighter version of those blue orbs.

“Don’t do that.”

I searched my mind as to what she could mean.

“Do what?”

Her pen rose, directed at me, like a pistol.

“That!” A loud whisper shot into my mind.

I tilted my head and exhaled. My eyes remaining affixed to hers.

“That evil thing.”

“Look at a dork?”

She shook her head. “No, that bad…magic.”

I still wasn’t sure what she meant. Though it didn’t matter. An allegro wind had walked its way on breezy legs and placed a leaf on her shoulder.

I liked the delicate way her neck met that shoulder. That discarded bit of tree was the finest jewel she could have ornamented.

“Let’s go…”

The thunder had strengthened the rain.

“Out there…?”

Her answer was to rise and exit.

I sat for a brief spell with a blank mind. My shifting foot gently removed the furry leg warmer and I followed.

The rain was cool. I felt it hit my face and tasted it on my tongue.

The night sang in strange notes of ancient expectation. Mystic music carried by the odd punctuation of a beatless thunder that nonetheless spoke rhythm.

We began to dance. Whether her or I…I do not know.

We danced with abandon in worry-free ecstasy as skyborne cataclysm embraced our daring.

Everything held the freshness of a peach. Her face had become alabaster as a Grecian statue.

She spun and landed in my arms.

For the first time since I’d summoned her from my past, we kissed.

All that had led to this, that had led to our existence, to our presence here in the meter of some divinely witless symphony, blessing the union of clumsy lips with kisses of its own.

As we stood forever in the harried deadly calm.


P.S. Don’t actually dance in a thunderstorm. It’s dumb.

Drowning Jones

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I threw him into the Thames.

This dream followed the outline of several others occurring some years apart.

Sort of English themed, in an industrial setting, seeming to be round 1860’s.

Could be cause of all the Doyle I’ve read over the years or my guardian’s furniture.

On Friday I’d caught up with an old high school buddy over billiards.

We’d done some reminiscing about the early 2000’s.

I work a very early shift and had stayed awake for quite a while so my mind was ripe for influence.

The following night I dreamt yet another strange English dream.

Sort of dusky, and dirty, and sepia all of its own accord, in feel, in substance. Just like the one before where the strange tramp in the crumpled top hat led me and an odd brigade of riff-raff up the side of some brutalist structure pausing only once to show me a severed thumb in a jar full of a sick yellowish liquid. The sun hung midway in the sky obscured by smog.
In this Iteration of what I’ve come to term ‘Victorian Hellscape,’ I was on an inky dock with several folk only some of whom were familiar. For some reason, I was very aware that this was London, that this dock beneath an embankment was, in fact, an access to the Thames. The murky grey water passed by in a thick sort of way under the wan light of the moon.

The strangers around whispered to one another. Yet there was one among them who I recognized. The last name I give is the real last name of the man in question but it is so common that giving it is of no consequence to privacy.

His name is Jones. He is lanky and tall with eyes like emeralds framed in lids that seemed to always be adjusted for haughtiness. I didn’t have much against him. And I found it odd that he appeared near me in this place.

The whole atmosphere, the whispering of the strangers, my own senses, we were all anticipating something.

Finally, I could take it no longer. I gripped Jones firmly by the arms and raised him off his feet. An awkward feat considering the ratio of our respective heights. Having gotten the Ichabod’s feet over the water line I thrust downward with all the force that I could muster. He disappeared beneath the murky polluted soup in an instant with nary a bubble to attest to his passage. The water was placid, moving thick and slow in the wan light of the moon, its surface like a sick and grimy mirror.

I waited but there was no sign of Jones.

“He’s going to die!” A strong hand gripped me by the shoulder. “He’s going to die, if he hasn’t already!”

I considered and lingered in indecision. I did not want to swim in that! But there was the pressure of my conscious and of the pleas of the crowd and I dove in.

I felt the current, I tasted filth, and I swam against its onslaught in vertical fashion attempting to descend as much as I could. But the current kept bring me up.

After some moments I realized that Jones was dead.

Then I woke up.


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Winter Drizzle (Poem)

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Drops against my window

On a Wednesday Afternoon

All came in a neat row

Neither slow nor soon

As I lay dreaming

My limbs drank in their soothing sound

Carrying a meaning

Of times and spaces more profound

For all is water

All was always so

Since Eve’s first daughter

Watched its ebb and flow

There is motion

There is meaning

In the ocean

Of my dreaming

As the patter on the window

Does with every moment grow

Like the trees that lined the garden

Long ago

There is only memory and pardon

In the winter drizzle

I now know

Hanging with Cecilia – Moody Piano Impromptu and Poem


There’s a wee spider beneath my keyboard…

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so I’m…

Hanging With Cecilia…

Lady Cecilia Meenor Spider spun her silken web

Lady Cecilia Meenor Spider controlled the flow and ebb

Of the weird ocean known as time

Even though lady Cecilia Meenor Spider was no greater than a Dime

Running up and down and back and forth

Up to the south

and down to the north

For gravity, she had nothing but derision

For all her, goings were her own decision

Lady Cecilia Meenor Spider

This masterful seamstress

Was a divine glider

Keeping the magic staying distress

Though the fly’s plight might seem tragic

When caught in her net

His permutation for her satiation

Is a communion without regret

Drunk on her poison feeling no pain

The six-legged flyer releases his soul but not in vain

For Cecilia spider has sent him on home

Where he’s a light beneath a magnificent dome

Thus is the keeping of time and its half

So darling don’t fear

For death is a laugh

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No More, No More (Poem)

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How is all of the magic

Of an embrace

Worn away by the Idleness

Of passing from place to place

With the day to day

All we can say

Is come what may

What for

What for

The sound of nails in the coffin

is

What for
What for

Premetaurely entombed

In lily garlands
Of pallid

Acceptance of

This here and
No more

I still recall sweetly
How the light caught the water

And how very neatly
The sun kissed her daughter

In the fading limelight
To mark a brief passing
Amid dreams, time, and our dancing bones
Skeletal frame
Made quick by live dust
Yet we don’t erect stones

We no longer trust

In kisses
Or passion
Such fleeces

Are quiet out of fashion

Ah but why

What for

What for

That’s the mystery most high

What 

What for

The coffin’s not even nigh

No

It is here

We’re in it my dear

Before our time
Because the magic slipped out
We’d found a strong rhythm a stolid old rhyme
We kept to the beat
Cause that’s what strength is about
Yet we no longer greet

The morning with a great expectation
In our rehearsed caress

There is no elation
I no longer see home

When your foot slips from under your dress

What for

What for

I have seen a vast garland
Stretching from aeons
In shadow in light

…gazing upon your delicate hand…
It gave my spirit fight

A sense of place in time’s sand

Yet now all I hear
Is yes, o yes dear

Each repetition is a hammer that cries ‘pon the nail

What for

What for

I’d try to see if there’s more for you or for me
But I’ve got a luncheon with Mr. O’ clock around Four

Will we ever find the door:
…Again…

The door

To no more

No more:

What for

What for…

No more


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TFJ Vlogs – Mr. Vesterby and the Elvish Dreamer – Impromptu Story


I decided to make up a story on the go during my drive back home from work. I think it came out ‘ok’ with its chief strength being atmospherics. There did seem to be a bit of unconscious plagiarism in the borrowing of elements from Lovecraft’s: Music of Erich Zann, and Poe’s: A Tale of the Ragged Mountains.

The title was a post-production decision since I felt the strange and nebulous description of one of the characters could best be subscribed by ‘elf or troll’. Trollish dreamer doesn’t have quite the same ring though.

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in my Corridors

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Had a friend over last something or other. He complained about the spiders. I have his laptop. Had a techie friend of mine put Mint on it.

This is the first text file on the visitors new operating system. I suppose I’ll file it under poems.


Please excuse the spiders in my corridors

I keep them to catch real flies

Cause I can’t catch my thoughts

All the little lies

Crawl round my head floor

Crowded million mildewed feet

Keep me from the door

Yea and I’d be dead from the insects

If I didn’t have spiders

Like regrets

To eat up all the scattered scurryings

Of the faint and flitting things with translucent wings

Please excuse the spiders in my corridors

You may think it sick

But see how clean my drawers

Its my favorite trick

With full eight legged precision

We weave our checkered tablecloth

This is the decision

Here there is no sloth

Though it may appear so lazy

There is no madness in the method

I’m not crazy

I clean with silk

These halls are fit for God

Are you of higher ilk?

Please excuse the spiders in my corridors

I was in India

For a summer or maybe more

Then Came the spinners

From mills in Lydia

Passed beneath my door

Now I admit some guests

One of whom is you

But such requests

If I were to speak true

I can’t fulfill

If you feel ill

All I can offer is pray…

Please excuse the spiders in my corridors