Dark Thoughts on the Highway

Ah.

The freeway.

The highway.

The open road.

Isn’t it lovely in the sunshine?

Thoughtful in the rain?

Aside from the regular irks and occasional rage.

Our roads are hopeful places.

Wistfully beckoning towards adventure and memory.

It’s rare to see them as tragic.

As manglers and as dealers of death.

Unless we ourselves suffer or witness the suffering of kin at their hand.

And even then those memories fade.

Roads are a utility a commonplace.

And things that are such. Things that are commonplace breed amnesia.

So again we see them as doorways to the sea, to mountain peaks, to friendly houses, and concert halls.

This is the horror of the commonplace.

Of the day to day.

Of forgetting the uncanny nature of life. Of conscious life. Of the divine spark.

These dailies…these things…

Things that through their prosaic hues mute the masterwork.

Obscuring.

They are a living death.

A zombie looking blankly down the road.


Surfeit of Hunger

im rather fond of clever turns of phrase

or rather what i imagine to be such things

a surfeit of hunger

an arrangement of concepts that came to me just now

im of a mind to better my health in two regards

fitness and diet

as to the latter

i am now craving a greasy meal

from a famous local diner

called Waffle House

Now in moderation such a thing

It can certainly aid in putting muscle on

But

The satisfaction of this craving

It’s a hunger in itself

A feeling of lack

I have been satisfied

There is one less thing that I wish to satisfy

What a pity!

isn’t it better to have a surfeit of hunger

at least sometimes

im sure im imagining myself to be more clever and original than i am

there must be someone who has either had this thought or this very turn of phrase

but why satisfy originality

and forget its craving?

Driftwood

The shine kissed the hills.

Warm grasses swayed beneath the pulling of the wind.

Cross legged and decidedly unclenched….uncloistered….

 I gazed at gulls in their fleeting circles….

Should I tread down, once more, to the shoreline?

Should I kick the salty texture of the sea?

Which odd assortment of neural fire must I stoke?

Locomotion was such a drag.

A ritual for sluggards.

So, I sat, like the coastal grasses, heeding only the wind.

Would I become like the bleached driftwood?

Light but substantive…. yielding but substantial….

Was it even a worthy goal?

What is ‘worth’ anyway?

Besides a synapse thwarted…

The remaining sunlight had many hours.

I would keep them.

Stillness, what a joke…

Everything rebels against that clown.

To sit…eschewing motion…

The heart itself knows there is no escape…

And so it moves…so it rhymes…

So it keeps the tension.

So it produces time.

My lips want beer.

My skin wants touch…

Corpus cannot drift cannot wooden be…

Just effulgent suds…

Ethereal…

Uncatchable…

Without a bottle…

Glistening polychromatic in the shine

Kissing the hills

Swaying the grasses

Warmth

Legs grip to behold guls circumscribing

Exulting in direction

Choosing none


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Of the Wind – A Musing

I stride among pillars at dawn

The magnificent sun casts their shadows across the simmering sand

The hawk glides overhead

Silent sacred symmetry

Eternal forms amidst primordial desert

Mortality, infinity, entwined

Will hands arise forever to furnish this duality

Or are they too mere whimsies of the shifting dust

A plaything of the wind


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Beer Bad or Good, I’m Still Working, Epoch Times on Corona

 


Despite being a bit panicky from overdoing it today I throw together a brief vlog.

O dear, it seems my hotel stay has made go all doughy. Ah, well. It gives me something to work on during the great spazz attack of 2020.

Subjects

Beer (Hops specifically) – Is it unhealthy?

UPS during CoronaChan

I subscribed to the Epoch Times

What Epoch Says about Corona and my take on that

Prattle


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Held – An Essay

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“Though there are many varieties of the view discussed. Utilitarianism is generally held to be the view that the morally right action is the action that produces the most good. “

The History of Utilitarianism | The Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy


Held.

Something is held.

This holding is seperate from perceiving.

It is removed from direct observation.

Removed from the things that sight delivers to consciousness.

When something is held.

That thing becomes a book.

A book bound by the scope of its subject and the alphabet used to assemble it.

A book very much like the literal thing.

This metaphysical volume is imprinted on the synapses of those who hold it.

So it is that we have spent all ages trading books.


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Plastic Rose – The Changing Nature of Memory


Isn’t it interesting or perhaps more fittingly alarming that we have precious few markers of passage? A letter is such a finite thing. Perhaps no more finite than a tweet but certainly more tangibly finite. Because the leaf, the bit of tree, it will yellow and curl and return to earth. The words that it held in scripts so reflective of the man and mood that etched it, they are so personal, and thus so exquisitely temporal. You can picture these textures in the grand tapestry of time. Yes, of such markers there are precious few.

The modems hum, the screens glow, the constant podcast prattle. These innovations are worth celebrating. Yet as much as they inspire they alter the nature of inspiration. What is the qualia of this novelty?

What sort of poems, novels, philosophies, and sciences will flow from the omnipresent memory of machines? From these mirrors into which we can instill our favorite reflections and gaze thereupon to our heart’s content – can we expect an accurate picture? And if high definition does indeed provide accuracy is it fertile? Or is it merely a reflection of saliencies that serve onanistic solipsism.

It is difficult to tell how we will change. It is perhaps impossible to know how altered we already are. It is definitely impossible to know how altered we were at the advent of the transistor. For such knowledge is ephemeral. It is gone with those that possessed it.

It is precisely this thing, ephemerality, that we must watch.

For a flowers beauty is in the rareness and brevity of its blossom.

A beauty which the plastic rose destroys.


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Jack was always last…

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“There’s nothing out there,” I said stepping across decript floorboards.

They creaked in protest.

“Ok,” I responded. “I guess there’s some wheat in the field. Though it’s wilted.”

The wind shuffled the flies on the brick windowsill.

“What? You thought they were paper airplanes?” I chuckled.

It was cold. It was cold for a few nights now. I wondered where Maria was.

I looked at the tracks. The train was still. I wondered what it was waiting for.

My father’s watch was broken. I left it open where the flies had been and let the rising sun glint off the face.

It’s reflection traveling in the direction of Novgorod.

A crow cawwed in the distance.

It must have been a week since I’d gone up the stairs. I judged as much by the empty tins clustered like crown jewels in the corner.

I fiddled with the cross round my neck.


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Rings – The Meditations of a Mortal

Hand holding a cigarette with smoke rings, a stylized monochrome vector image.


You.
You there.
Yes, you with the hair so like the leaves that autumn brings.
Do you know why fall is my favorite season?
It is not just the hint of chill in the air.
It is because rings are made.
Yes.
I love fall because I love decay.
Because I love the evidence of life that has been lived.
The gentle descent of death into rivers as cool, and deep, and gray, as those eyes you’ve fixed upon me.
You shudder and wonder what’s so great about rot.
Well look at the tree’s hair that’s just landed on that delicate shoulder, so near your own leafy crown.
How I love the slight bend in your neck.
How tenderly the angle travels to the collarbone.
You know I see you as a skeleton,
Shhhhhhh… relax a bit,
you’ve drowned your cigarette in gin,
I’ve no desire to harm you.
Here take mine,
a famililar act should steel the nerves.
You know that such lovely lips should not be chimnneys.
But while we’re on the subject of smoking,
why is it that we love it so,
the wrapping of these dead dry leaves and their cremation?
We inhale decay.
And in rings the evidence of life’s passage curls round us.


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